i'm HAPPY. bcos i've successfully submitted my first proj.
ROM proj. i still could rmb that dreadful night.
i spent a couple of hrs doing the appendices.
and then, trying to link them nback o the main report.
IT WAS TERROR!! and then, i could rmb..
mike's conclusion came in at ard 3am, shana nd I was trying to QC.
and aft which, slot it in into the main report.
shan, pam and I were no in the right state of our minds.
it was obvious. =(
bcos for a few times, we simply couldnt make out wad each of us was saying.

out of a sudden, i rli felt that i MUST continue to finish up everything b4 i slp.
i dont wan to give up..
it's rli stupid to put in so much earlier on, and give up in the end.
i promised myself, nv will i allow history to repeat itself.
and so, it's bcos i felt so attached to the proj as well.
come to think of it, i rli want to achieve a good grade.
i sacrificed my time, my sleep just for the proj.
each and ever proj meeting we had made SENSE to me.
so well, i ended work at 5am.
rli a big thanks to 'the cabinet'.
pam was sick, yet she stayed up to acc me till late.
i rli appreciate that. and i very much wish to see our results! =))

this is the first time i submit a proj before the submission time.
we were 4hrs earlier, and i felt relieved and all.
even though i only managed a 5hrs sleep dat night.

aft the first proj submitted in sch on wed, i had tuition.
so, lunch was at teabreak hr and dinner was not taken.
i've suffered a loss of appetite. and tuition drained me out as well.
ARGH- i only got home at 10pm.
and started on my BOE. cos i'll be having consultation with joan ho.
it was a terrible night AGAIN.

and yes, aft all these explanations earlier on,
i'm just GLAD to tell all of u dat i've missed morning lect + tut AGAIN!!
WAHH. i ought to give myself a tight slap! =p
i was angry, angry and angry.
cos i did a breif report for BOE for NTH.
and then, i had to be marked 'absent' for the tut.
nvm. ok wadever.
i seriously nid more time.
to sleep. and to RELAX.

today lunch was as usual. i had it at 4 plus again.
so i'm feeling kind of sick now.
i dun think my stupid sensitive stomach could digest the irregular meals.
but i dun care.
dere's still so many things waiting for me to do.
i feel bad by not completing them.
or wasting too much time on doing my own things.
which i am doing it right now!!!

i miss my dear frens...
yunqian melody and ailing...
we had missed quite a few sessions of shopping alr!
i rli wished dat aft next wk, we could meet up and hv a good chat.

and again, i miss him too..
suddenly i dont feel dat we've not met for so long.
and i've lost count of the days we've last went out.

i'm sorry for not being able to call u sometimes..
i duno whether u mind it or not.
but i still feel kind of guilty.
bcos i used to expect ur calls while u were busy too..
i wonder if it applies to u.
cos now i'm not doing what i once expected u to do.
no matter what it is, i felt bad for not showing u more care and concern when u're not feeling well.
hope u are really fine right now... =)

last of all, i really miss you dearly..
*hugs*